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bodyperks (tm) - mocha nipple enhancement
Anyone ever heard of Bodyperks?
See, it's been close to a year I think. I created this blog to talk about not only my hair, but other things on my mind.
If you've been following my blog you know that I'm a breast cancer survivor. You know that I tried breast reconstruction & failed. You know that I had the implants removed & was using prothesis so that I could look more like a normal grown up woman.

Well lately I haven't been feeling like a grown up woman. I feel like I did as a child, stuffing my shirt to look like I got boobs! I find my 3 year old daughter doing the same- stuffing her shirt. She asked me the other day "what's that" pointing at my fake boobs. Can I tell her it's a fake boob? Do I say 'prosthesis' to a 3 year old? How can I explain why mommy's chest looks so different from hers? Wait- that just sounded stupid.
I did tell her she will get breasts when she gets older. In the meantime, I need to figure out my feelings. I have this fear of the fake boobs being noticeably fake. Sometimes I don't wear them at all. On weekends when I'm not trying to impress anyone I'll be as flat-chested at my little girl, but somehow I still want to feel like I'm a grown woman.
I think I found a little confidence booster with this product (though I haven't ordered it yet). I remember seeing something about it on Sex in the City on HBO. The girls put on these fake nipples & it was like "ALL EYES ON ME!!" Not that I'm really trying to attract that much attention, but I'm thinking to myself how cool would that be if I could put these fake nips in my bra over the prosthesis & look like I'm a bit chilly or perky all the time! Might even help me to feel sexy again. Sometimes I think the flat chest but huge nips might cause a lot of curious stares.... something I haven't had a lot of lately.