Ever had one of those moments when you felt like if you weren't there no one would even notice? I feel like that quite often.. but even more so this past week. I came down with this horrible cold/flu & called in sick to work. Usually my supervisor will call back later in the morning... or at least before the end of the day to see how horrible my sickness is. I went 2 days with no follow up calls from anyone on my team. Then on the 3rd day I drag my weary body into work & they ask "how are you?". I say I am a lot better than I was the previous 3 days.... and then I hear " Make sure you don't cough or sneeze on (your co-worker)". Thanks for missing me.
Another friend pointed out my absence on this blog lately. I'm sorry, once again. There was another bout of slight depression...feeling sad about being alone & seeming never good enough, but I'm getting over that. Today there is sadness over the loss of our pet bunny.... but the kids don't even notice yet. I guess they're just used to me pushing the cage outside before I clean it. This time it won't be coming back in though. I don't know what happened. She was fed on Thursday night & I saw she was fine last night. Today we come home & I notice she's not moving. When the kids left the room I go for a closer look. The cedar chip bedding looks like its in her mouth ( I didn't look THAT close) & her body was just beginning to stiffen up. So maybe if I had stayed home instead of going to the pool....paid a little more attention? UGH!! I can't do this to myself.
I've met a few psychos in my area. I'm still single. I'm still prayerful that God will send the man that is supposed to be in my life. I know there's a difference between wants & needs.... and I hope he will send a few of the qualifications that I want as well as what I need. In the meantime.... dang, is it too much to ask that if a guy is really interested that he go ahead & PLAN a date instead of "I dunno, what do you want to do?" "Let's wait & see what happening on that day" ?? I grew up watching TV & movies where the guy called the girl saying things like "I would like to take you to dinner...", "Hey, would you like to go bowling with me", "I have tickets to a So & So concert... would you like to go with me". I guess guys don't do that anymore.
