Make that Change!

What's going through this sistah's head (and around her head!) on a daily basis?

Friday, April 25, 2008

SING-ALONG-WITH ME!

Yup... this is the thought of the day:

DAMAGED by Danity Kane
[Shannon:]
Do-do you got a first aid kit handy
Do-do you know how to patch up a wound
Tell me, are-are-are-are you-are you patient, understanding?
Cause I might need some time to clear the holed in my heart and I

I've tried every remedy and nothing seems to work for me

[D. Woods:]
Baby(Baby), this situation's driving me crazy(Crazy)
And I really wanna be your lady(Lady)
But the one before you left me so

[Chorus 1:]
Damaged, (Damaged), Damaged (Damaged)
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is Damaged (Damaged)
So Damaged (So Damaged)
And you can blame the one before

[Chorus 2:]
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
Baby I gotta know
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
What are you gonna do
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
Baby I gotta know
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
What are you gonna do

[Aundrea:]
Do-do you got a first aid kit handy
Do-do you know how to patch up a wound tell me
Are-are-are-Are you-Are you patient, understanding?
Cause I might need some time to clear the holed on my heart and I

[Aubrey:]
You try to gain my trust(Trust)
Talking is not enough
Actions speak louder than words
You gotta show me something
My heart is missing some pieces
I need this puzzle put together again

[Chorus 1:]
Damaged, (Damaged), Damaged (Damaged)
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is Damaged (Damaged)
So Damaged (So Damaged)
And you can blame the one before

[Chorus 2:]
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
Baby I gotta know
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
What are you gonna do
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
Baby I gotta know
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
What are you gonna do

[D. Woods:]
Can you fix my h-e-a-r-t
Tell me can u fix my heart
Cause it's d-a-m-a-g-e-d
Don't know it's damaged
Can you fix my h-e-a-r-t

[Aundrea:]
Tell me are you up for the challenge
Cause my heart is damaged

([Chorus 1: x2]
Damaged, (Damaged), Damaged (Damaged)
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is Damaged (Damaged)
So Damaged (So Damaged)
And you can blame the one before

[Chours 2:]
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it

[Aubrey:]
My heart is damaged, damaged, damaged
My heart is damaged, damaged, damaged
My heart is damaged, damaged, damaged
My heart is damaged, damaged, damaged
My heart is damaged

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Feeling like Cherelle...

Oh yeah... back in the 80's when I was in grade school. Things were so simple &... innocent. I wanted to keep it that way, but some guys just wouldn't let me.


The same rings true 25 years later! I know I'm not the same innocent person I was back then... I mean I have not 1 but 2 kids now... who am I kidding? But still, just because I've done it at least 2 times in my life means I'm supposed to just give it away to any guy that offers to buy me dinner or give me a hug? Come on now... you've got to be kidding!

I got another call the other day from someone offering to come by for a visit... he'd be here in about 3 hours... after midnight. OK... if you really think a long drive is deserving to sit on the couch & watch a movie or hold hands..come on through, but nothing else is happening. Don't you know he hung up! lol Actually I wanted the video for " I didn't mean to turn you on..." but it's unavailable.

I love how you can always find a song to relay how you are feeling about any situation!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Mama Bear is concerned & frustrated!


My son is OBSESSED with singing songs from his favorite 2 DVDs.... the Underdog theme & "Tomorrow" from Annie. Isn't it funny how a few months ago I complained he wasn't talking... now I just wish he had other songs to sing, even though he's still not talking clearly. I mean just out of nowhere, eating our McDonalds last night (tax day sale, buy 1 get1 for a penny).. he takes a bite & starts :


"Da sunnle comout... TOMORROW....dunnnadunnadunna TOMORROW....eh ee sun!"


I kinda like this part...

"TOOOOO-MORROW...TOMORROW...NI NUHYA ....TOMORROW..eeeeonee a day aaaway"


A big improvement from nothing.... but we need new songs!! Do your kids have favorite musical movies? Please give me suggestions. I love the fact that he's motivated to sing & it's helping him develop more of a vocabulary.. but MAN I wish he would latch onto more songs than just those two!



And now that I type out his pronunciations of these lyrics it adds to my concern that he may be on the autism spectrum. Last year he was tested by the local school board & they called is a speech & developmental delay. No... I think something a little more than that is going on here. I mean he's like a normal 4 year old in so many aspects, but then shows so many signs of autism as well. He may be a high functioning autistic or I think they call it Ausberger's Syndrome. I have to look it up. We should know more soon...he's scheduled for more testing this month. Pray for my boy ya'll!

Monday, April 14, 2008

I Am STRONG... I'm Invincible...

LOL! I gotta tell ya'll..this weekend something happened that made me feel so strong in the strangest way. Someone that I kinda had an eye out for but haven't talked to in months called. But it was after midnight on a Saturday! OH WOW! It was was my 1st real Booty-Call in almost 13 years!! LOL!!
So what was so empowering about that? Well as much as I like the guy & was interested in him... I told him no. :) Not only because my kids were with me this weekend & I won't subject them to such behavior, but...gosh darn it I deserve more than the treatment he was offering. Couldn't think about me all day until after midnight.... UGH! He probably won't call again... and that will show his true colors & it will be fine w/ me.

Holier than who??

Recently someone made an attempt to insult me. The remarks made were that I was acting as if I were " Holier than thou". To that I say "THANK YOU".
It means that there has obviously been a change from the woman I used to be. That it is obvious that I am living my life in a more Christianly manner that I was before. That I'm not faking it... I must be really doing it. For that I say THANK YOU and I'm sorry.... your attempt to knock me down yet again has failed.
"But thou, oh Lord, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head."
"I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people that have set themselves against me round about"
You can keep trying... but you cannot & will not hurt a child of God.
I don't feel I'm holier than anyone. I am a sinner. I always have been... and as long as I'm human I believe I always will be. But there is a difference in the way I lived before & the way I live now. I am SO GLAD that the light is bright enough to be seen through all my troubles, pain, & the turmoil I go through...that someone can see that I am at the very least TRYING to be a woman of GOD.
I know I'm not there. I'm not perfect or anywhere close to it. Each day I try to take 1 more additional step towards my Lord & Savior. There is evil all around & it's hard to resist... but I continue fighting it.
Lord, give me strength.....and give me David Otunga too!!
I AIN'T FORGOT ABOUT YOU MAN!!

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