Wow I was miserable!

How come no one pointed that out to me... that my posts were becoming all loom & doom about all over the place about everything? It's been a while since I've posted, I know. The last one I was upset about Valentine's Day coming up. I had just met a guy in the week or 2 before & was hopeful for a nice 1,2 & eventually 3rd date w/ him. It never happened. After out inital meeting, his subsequent phone calls started with the greeting "Heeeey Miss Big-Booty". Was that my cue to start swooning over him??? Then he goes on to ask if I could lend him $500 for his rent. FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS! Mind you, I work for a living & am the single mother of 2 young children. Do you really think I have that amount of money to just lend out to some guy I just met?? Needless to say, when he called after that I did not answer.

I put my foot down & decided I just wasn't going to deal with men anymore. It was obvious to me that it just wasn't meant for me to find a special guy because I am too nice. I watch the Maury show & see so many loud mouth, bitter, mean, irritated women fighting over who their baby daddy is. With that kind of attitude they were still able to find someone interested in them for a date or 2. So that's the kind of attitude I decided I was going to start carrying. I wasn't trying to hear anything any man tried to say or whistle at

me. They're only after 1 thing anyway...why should I make it easy for them? lol

Well the "Evil Ouida" didn't last long. I went to Chicago for that house music picnic again in July & met up with an old college friend. Little did we know that when he started communicating on Facebook it was the start of an actual relationship! We met up at a club party, we danced, we talked ( or shouted over the music) & then he t

ook me to get something to eat.

He doesn't understand how 72 degrees in a halter top could be cold to a Floridian native...but I was really cold! So he gave me his jacket & put his arm around me. Perfect opportunity for that 1st kiss, right? So now here it is, 4 months later & we're still communicating on Facebook. But now

next to my name it says "is in a relationship with "<----HIM! I'm not posting his name here. I'm just really happy at this point. Would be happier if it weren't a long distance relationship...like if he moved here. I'm not trying to rush things though. I realize I do have control issues, so I'm trying hard to just sit back & let things happen as they may.

I also talked about making major changes in my life last time I posted. I said I

was gonna cut & color my hair. For a minute I thought about cutting it short like Janet Jackson did! No...I didn't do it. I really dragged my feet on the whole issue. Instead I just began to TAKING OUT THE LOCs process last month. That's right... the past shoulder length locs you see there are no more. 1st I woke up feeling really bad w/ a bad headache 1 day. I blamed it on sleeping on the locs & pulling at them in my sleep. So I grabbed the scissors & chopped off 6 inches! I looked similar to Whoopi Goldberg's haircut. This transformation wasn't enough for me. I decided I wanted real sisterlocs, not these braidlocs I got. I want mine smaller. So as painstaking as it may be, instead of cutting the hair off & starting fresh that way, I am picking the locs apart 1 by 1.

While my hair is in transition I've been wearing wigs in public ( to work, church, etc.). I'm about 3/4 of the way unloc'ed now...so stay stuned for the big reveal. I'm looking forward to having a short time combing through my 'naturally curly hair' and having the option of wearing it bone straight if and when I can. Hopefully I still have a little bit of an audience... did I lose all of you in my absence?