Thank you for being a friend....

My best friend & I used to decorate the letters we sent to each other with 'friendship' lyrics from songs we used to sing. The theme song to "The Golden Girls" still rings true to me. I was so happy to spend time with her in Chicago. I bet I could come up with a song for each of the friends you see here as well! lol

Natural cousins

OH I JUST HAD TO SHARE THIS!! In NYC we had a family gathering & I was so thrilled to see cousins that I hadn't seen in years. Well, some of them I did see a few months ago. Anyway, I was really happy to see everyone is officially wearing their hair natually...1 of whom is locked in a similar fashion to mine! And I was especially happy with the fact that my son's hair is FINALLY long enough for me to braid when he sits still long enough!

Ever get that feeling....

You know you've done nothing wrong, but you feel like you've just failed a very important test? On Father's Day the minister at church gave a sermon on what a good father/husband is & how the wife/mother is supposed to treat him. True he pretty much gave the same sermon for Mother's Day, but it's funny how when the situation is turned you don't like the way things go. I listened to each point he made, thinking to myself "yes.. I did that", "Ok, I didn't do that" & "no...I guess I didn't do that either". I was shocked by the thoughts of "yes..I used to do that, but haven't lately". And of course I had an answer in retaliation as to why I didn't do whatever anymore. At the same time I just feel bad that here's a man that I guess is trying his best to be a better man in spite of himself & I just don't feel the same love for him I once did. I think certain actions opened my eyes to the type of person he really is, & deep down I know that no matter how much he says he will change I know certain things will never change. I just feel bad that you give your best & it just isn't enough. It's not fair to be in a marriage where it is clear that only 1 person is in love with the other. Things should be reciprocal...and they haven't been for quite some time.
Today I am feeling a bit lonely... like my friend won't talk to me. I did something to make them mad... & I don't even know what that something is! All I know is when I know I hurt my friend, I want to try to make amends...but you can't when your friend won't talk to you, right? Now this analogy isn't about any 1 friend in particular...but more like the whole group of friends! Everyone listed in my cellphone address book is supposed to sit there & wait for my call....but no one has been available lately! I can only talk to a voicemail message for so long! lol

MY WEEK IN CHICAGO!!

I really enjoyed sight seeing in my old town. My kids enjoyed to thrills of big city life.... they've never ridden a bus or train before, never mind the excitement of seeing one go by every 10 minutes or so. We took a few trips downtown to Millinium Park, but never made it to the Children's Museum like I wanted... we had other pressing issues that came up. We had a great time nonetheless & I learned we definitely need to come back more often... our family misses us!

A REAL VACATION!

YES!! I went on one! I had to take the kids with me, but we finally got away from home & work. Went to New York & Chicago to visit relatives, some which had never seen the kids in their 4 years of existance! I didn't get a chance to do ALL the things I wanted to do, but got a good part of it accomplished. I will be back to blog pictures & such later.... I took 143 shots! I gotta sort through which are blog worthy!