I wanna meet your boyfriend...(Open letter)

Dang, divorce can be so ugly. This started out so amicable, but now .....wow. It's getting ugly in here.
A few weeks ago I was greeted with a sort of growling/intimidating request.
"And I want to meet your boyfriend"
"Huh?"
"I said I want to meet your boyfriend! You got a problem with that?"
This request has thrown me for a loop. Honestly. A boyfriend? After what I just went through I'm supposed to have a boyfriend now? What makes you think I even HAVE a boyfriend anyway? I'm not the one that packed up, faked living w/ a friend & almost immediately moved in with someone new...not only that, but introducing the kids & having them spend the night in her place... all the while deceiving their mother to think you were staying with another friend. Oh what a tangled web...you tell one lie followed by another and another. Don't you ever get tired of it all? I mean really!

I'm happy you did find someone else that's willing to put up with the lies, the BS, carryout all your demands & such. So so so happy for ya'll. But my boyfriend? Why after all this time do you ask to meet him? What difference does he make in the scenario at this point? You see... kinda like that Kelly Clarkson song...

• Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk.
• Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt.
• Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me....

So sorry to disappoint you, but you won't be meeting my boyfriend any time soon. Why? Cuz I have to meet him first!

The standard has been set SO HIGH now I'm not sure if I'll even be able to date again... but I'm not worried. The next man in my life....whoa, he's gonna be something special. Much better than anyone I had before. Now I ain't sayin' I'm a gold-digger.. but I ain't messing w/ a broke..broke...
Anyway.... sorry to burst your bubble.... but I'm not like you. I'm not in a rush to hook up because I cannot stand on my own. I'm taking my time so I can get it right this time. And if I ever fall in love again, I will be sure that that man is MY FRIEND! Not sure you even know anything about that.

And David- unlike all the other groupies you have.... I wasn't trying to DATE you. I'm not your type anyway. I just thought you would be cool people to be friends with!

OK for real now... I've Changed!

I've never been the sort of person that is always looking for attention, but when I do something different it's nice to have people that notice even the slightest change. Today was not one of those days. In some ways it's nice to know that the change was so subtle.... and it wasn't one of those jumping up & down screaming for attention type of things. You've been through my pictures before... you know what I look like. Let's see if you even notice.

Nope? Still don't see it? Well, yeah... the camera is sort of out of focus. That's what happens when you are forced to take pictures of yourself BY yourself. UGH! Times like this I wish I did have someone else around. Oh yeah.. my daughter is becoming a photographer. I must post the recent pics that she took around the house... including her Monkey Money Bank & her brother. It's interesting to see what subjects catch her eye that she finds facinating enough to want to take pictures of them. Maybe for Christmas this year she can get HER OWN CAMERA & leave mine alone. Either that or I will someday learn to just put my camera away somewhere she can't get to it! lol But you know it could be worse.

Oh yeah... the change. Man I have a way of running off on tangents not related to that actual subject. Ok... here's a hint. If you knew me somewhere around 2001-2002, this isn't anything new, but it hasn't been done since then. I just thought I'd give it another try. Here's the hint... before & after:

I KNOW I'VE BEEN CHANGED

Mark this date... May 6, 2008. I have truly found God. We close our eyes & send our prayers up to the heavens... but they're going the wrong way! Send your prayers to Witchita, Kanasas! Our God is there! It was in the newspaper, so you know it's true!