So Blessed...

I cannot begin to describe what I am feeling right now... other than to say this past year has truely been a blessing. I know my life had been somewhat a roller coaster, but just like when you are on one & you learn how to bear the ups & downs... and you brace yourself for the downs you know are coming. In this past year my downs haven't really been all that bad!
I'm getting an understanding in prayer. My words are not as eloquent as others. Face it, I'm just not a very vocal person. But I'm happy my God knows that.... and knows what I am feeling in my heart. I'm learning to ask for the things I want... the things I need... to pray for the people I care about. I'm blessed enough to see these prayers answered in so many different ways. OH I am so blessed. I'm reaping the harvest God promised me.... take back what the Devil stole from me... and I rejoice today for I shall inherit it all! Thank you Lord.

I pray all of you following this blog, whether on a constant basis because you are interested in the things I say, of if you just stumbled across it while doing a search on locs, or kids, David Otunga (who is crossed off my list now... I've grown passed him), have a very Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanzaa, Happy Hannukah, Merry Festivus (or whatever).... have a Happy Holidays!

Stolen Quiz.... 1 Word

Where is your cell phone? Charger
Your hair? Loc'ed
Your mother? Sleeping
Your father? gone
Your favorite thing? Cookies
Your dream last night?unsure
Your dream/goal? changes
The room you're in? living
Your fear? Insects
Where do you want to be in 6 years? alive
Where were you last night? here
What you're not? dumb
Muffins? ok
One of your wish list items? Peace
Where you grew up? Illinois
The last thing you did?pack
What are you wearing? t-shirt
Your TV? on
Your pet? rabbit
Your computer? Compaq
Your life? hectic
Your mood? hurt
Missing someone? yes!
Your car? gone
Something you're not wearing? bra (LMAO... I gotta laugh at that)
Your summer? interesting
Love someone? yes
Your favorite color? PINK!
When is the last time you laughed? today
Last time you cried? recently

An explanation of silence...

I'm sorry I haven't been very vocal lately. I've been rather hurt, upset, & not understanding why this happened. On a particular Sunday morning I was told that my friend's 9 year old son hung himself in his bedroom. Of course my 1st words were "NOOOO!!!" It's not possible. There's no way a 9 year old can be so distraught about anything that they seriously contemplate suicide... let alone carry it through. And I know his mother is a prayerful woman of God. So how can something like this happen. I can only imagine her pain... and I know I only felt maybe a tenth of that pain as I also have a son. I can't imagine losing him in a similar manner. So in a way I've been in a sort of grieving pattern for my friend's son. He will be missed... and we know he is with our heavenly father now, so at least we can smile about that.

So I'm trying to break the silence now.... trying to become more vocal & outgoing. I'm making new friends... or at least acquaintances. Still not dating, but sometimes wish I would. Honestly...sometimes it would be nice to know that at the end of the day there's that special someone that I think about who's also thinking about me. Maybe there is & I just haven't met him yet. Or maybe I met him & we just haven't solidified anything towards dating yet. Or maybe I just need to accept the fact that I'm just too chicken to put myself out there. Or too picky? It's alway too something... right?

So I recently decided to stop putting things off & do things for myself. Or course I always put God & the kids first, but I need to do nice things for me once in a while. For the 1st time since 2003 I got myself a new pair of glasses...and WOW. The frames are not black! My mom was shocked. I might just get another pair as well....for the sexy smart mom look. lol