Back onto a hair topic

I guess this is for those of you that have been following me on this loc journey of mine. I started my locs in March of 2006. It's been more than a year. My hair has only grown maybe an inch longer in length & had not changed color.

So someone PLEASE tell me how I could possibly go from this,

to something like this literally overnight!













I mean come on! More than 1 person today has asked "Is that your real hair?" The people that I see in the halls here at work 4 days a week! Just shows how much they pay attention to me around here.

Yes, it's a wig. It's Halloween fer cryin out loud. Today I AM Tyra Banks.... at least I will be when I get home & get that little black dress on!

When 1 door closes...

Ain't it funny how here I am upset about not hearing from 1 friend...& then I find another wanting to hear from me? If anyone has a book on being a proper friend, please let me know. I'm obviously not doing something right.
So all my time cannot be devoted to any 1 person at this time... that is obvious. But this friend is grateful for the bit of time that we do spend talking on the phone, or even in person. It is nice to have that friend to help you out when needed... and to know you're not particularly 'needy' when you ask for help- he's happy to help you out. & that makes it easier for you to reciprocate when he needs help as well. No one is perfect. We can all use a hand from a friend.
I am thankful to God for the friends I have in my life- both old & new. I am thankful for friends from my past, for they taught me valuable lessons during their season with me. I am thankful for friends in my future... for I'm sure I will learn valuable lessons from them as well, and they will possibly learn something from me too ( if they are open to receive it).

A salute to the other winners

I'm copying the link posted by Eliza Brock. She is so cool ya'll! She has a very informative blog that I hope to check out one day when I have more time.....I'm so behind on my blog reading!


I just noticed that they posted our stories on the bright starts website sometime in the last few days. If you want to check it click here Or copy and paste this in your browser http://pink.brightstarts.com/PinkSub24x0x1x0.aspx

Why the butterfly?

It's not something I like to admit because it was once used against me. I have a real fear of insects. Anything with more than 4 legs creaps me out & I will run... even cross the street... to get away from it. But lately I've actually been attracted to an insect. The butterfly.
Once I stopped dressing so much like a quarterback or short-stop ( in other words, not so tom-boyish & more girly) I notice a lot of the embellishments on my clothes or jewelry I select have a butterfly on them. I didn't set out to purposely select the butterfly. I almost feel like it selected me!
The butterfly starts out as an ugly catapillar. Eww, I'm getting creeped out just writing about it. But catapillars have never been pretty in my opinion. But they go away for a while, wrap themselves up in a cocoon for a while, & when they emerge they are just beautiful! Spreading those wings, showing off those colors.... & loved by most that can understand what it had been through. Sounds like a rather familiar story, huh?

I'm not a fashion model, but for the 1st time I can look at the pictures I've taken in the past 2 months & say WOW.... not just pretty, but beautiful!
I'm glad I'm finally getting to that point within myself. Now I also need to work on being able to believe others when THEY say it!
Thank you Lord for showing me beauty in something I once feared. Thank you for showing me that it's not how you start, but how you end.
Til I blog again, be blessed.

Learning to let go...

This song has been on my mind & heart all day today. It's a gospel song by DeWayne Woods called "Let Go". The chorus says:
As soon as I stop worrying, Worrying how the story ends I let go and I let God Let God have His way That’s when things start happening When I stopped looking at back then I let go and I let God Let God Have his way
My thing is when will I learn to listen and do as it says!? I worry so much about stuff I don't even realize that I'm worrying!
This week it's sort of about my health & spirituality again. I am declaring myself hormonally imbalanced & I need help! I put in a call to my oncologist this afternoon, but of course he's too busy to answer birth control pill questions for someone that's not even 'gettin busy' lately...lol. Maybe tomorrow.
And of course since I'm so hormonal I'm crying at the drop of a hat. I listen to these gospel songs that tell me how "For everything I am... you showed me", "Shake Yourself Loose" "I got the Victory" & and others. They're supposed to lift your spirit. Instead today they made me cry.
And of course for some reason the semi-hot-flashes started again around 3am...so I couldn't sleep. While laying there I thought about the friend I haven't talked to in about a month now....why hasn't he called? Did I do something wrong? Is he ok? Just more for me to worry about. I do miss him, but if I've been cut out of his circle there really isn't much I can do about that... now is there?
That's when I need to remind myself As soon as I stop worrying, Worrying how the story ends I let go and I let God Let God have His way That’s when things start happening When I stopped looking at back then I let go and I let God Let God Have his way

My WOW Weekend.

What can I say about his trip? It was much more than I ever expected. From the huge gift bag of goodies presented at check in, the marvelous dinner at Emeril’s, meeting the other moms selected as winners in this contest. My mind was blown away that I was put in the same category as them. There is 1 mom that makes gift baskets for cancer patients as they begin chemo treatment. Another mom was instrumental in bringing breast cancer awareness to foreign countries through the Y-Me Foundation. It kind of left me feeling like “What did I do that was so special?” In turn, when my story was told, the jaws of the other moms dropped & they were in awe of me as I was of them. I guess I am really my own worst critic.
The spa package was absolutely wonderful. I haven’t been so pampered & catered to since…. Maybe since I was a baby in Pampers! Our lunch was served & each mom was called into their particular service room (massage, manicure, facial, etc.) for their appointment. The lesson I learned is to never get your fingernails done with less than 1 hour to get dressed for a big event! I did sort of ruin 3 nails, but no one noticed. I had no idea a facial & a massage could be so relaxing! I will definitely look into receiving similar services for myself in the Ft. Myers area in the future. Having these services done taught me how I needed to take better care of myself.>


At the Pink Tie Ball I was simply astounded in being surrounded by “big money” people! While meeting Jane Fonda I kept thinking “OMG!! I’m shaking hands w/ Barbarella!” and was humbled when she said she was stunned by my story. A big celebrity took the time to read about what I had been through & she took me by the hand & told me how strong I was. These words from a close friend of the great Gloria Steinem (the epitome of a strong woman) meant a lot to me. I plan to print out a scrapbook of my weekend adventures. In my gift bag I was given a framed copy of the magazine ad we appeared in. I also plan on framing the newspaper article, other pictures from this event as well as pictures from the Making Strides walk this coming Saturday. Breast Cancer Awareness month has been a big deal for me in 2007 & I want to memorialize it as best as possible for my children to look at in the future. If not for the activities in 2004 & 2005, they should definitely know how great their mom was in 2007.

Oh I am sooo thankful to my God that has blessed me in so many ways..more than I can say.

Til I blog again, be blessed.

Thankful for no time?

Just as I make a mental promise that I will blog everyday about this blessings in my life, I find things get so busy that I barely have time to sit at the PC to check email, let alone write a blog. Some could look at is as a broken promise. I'm choosing to look at it in a more positive light. Like that old R/B song says "The idle mind is the playground for the devil". I think the same for idle hands. My hands have been to busy too blog, therefore too to do anything evil as well! Believe me... this has been one of those weeks where I would have LOVED to choke some people.

2 weeks ago I had a PET scan. It showed something suspicious on my neck area & they sent me for a CAT scan. During the CAT scan I had an allergic reaction to the dye injection. I immediately started with the hayfever allergy symptoms & during the week it progressed into a full blown cold/flu/pneumonia. Ok, maybe not as bad as pneumonia but it was pretty bad. This week I got the results of the CAT scan- ALL CLEAR!! So I'm still good.
I also got 15 minutes of local fame this morning...world wide after I hit the "POST" button on this blog. I was interviewed by the local newpaper yesterday because of the contest I won. Now my kids get to see their picture in the newspaper!
http://www.news-press.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20071011/NEWS0103/310110003
I am thankful & so blessed to be here this day to enjoy all the events that will happen for me this weekend!